I do love anal when it goes right but beside being painful sometimes it can be messy even when I've prepared myself. I've messed up a few guys' dicks and it is embarrassing. I try to get him to put on a condom.
I'm only really attracted to cocks bigger than mine - which is most I admit. Although small cocks are easier for anal and don't choke or gag you so much they don't have the awesome homoerotic attraction a large penis.
We'd broken up already because she wouldn't let me fuck her. I think she was planning to let him fuck her but he wanted a threesome so it was kind of poetic justice - she was so pissed off me taking her place
I didn't experience another guy's cock until I was 21. He told me he was 8.5 inches - I didn't believe him until we were in bed - despite the warning I was really shocked - I didn't know a penis could be that big...and so thick! I realised straight away that I was the passive receiver - it hurt so much that I ended up sucking him off - I loved it!
Sometimes sucking for ages on a cock can get boring if he doesn't cum and then jaw ache sets in and then I try for some anal stuff for a change. I remember the shortest time I sucked a guy off. I think I took him by surprise when he showed it off to me and he came in a few seconds in my mouth.