Started by #146804 at 21,Jul,13 17:21
 | The time has come for to leave. I haven't been on for a while as things have happened that I never thought would.
It is no se,cret that I enjoyed anal sex - but few knew to what extent. At work I would have a plug in my bum and I would cry and beg for the Mr to have anal with me every minute he wasn't working. It came to the point that having anything in my bottom hurt terribly yet still I couldn't stop. The Mr eventually refused and begged me to go to a doctor yet I didn't. He left, he tried to help yet I pushed him away, if he wouldn't give me anal I didn't want him. I got into large insertions, mostly coke and pepsi bottles. Nothing was too big, the pain became addictive. Eventually I was hospitalised with a major infection. During my time in hospital, unable to succumb to my terrible fantasies: I found God. I have no idea why he would speak out to someone who had drifted so far or how I had ever wandered to far from him in the first place but it happened. And thus I'm saying my goodbyes. I do not know if the Mr is still on here under a different name but if he is: the time we had will always be precious, I'm sorry for what I became and thank you. Thank you so much. Good bye to all my friends here. I will keep my account open for a while for you to contact me. It has been a strange journey. It is not one of shame, but it is at a close and I must go now to a life with God, and it is looking ever so bright and beautiful. |
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there is no god, there is only pain and some luck..!
as an atheпst, i believe there is NO god. for if there were a god, he would care about the loosers, drop-outs, hungry, sick, poor, dieing, the c h i l d r e n living in wars that don't seem to EVER stop...
if there is an almighty god, he is the meanest fucker you can think of!
@Peeweedick: i will NEVER acknowledge the existence of this motherfucker that lets little c h i l d r e n die hungry, thirsty, or by v i o l a n c e.
A battery has a (+) and (-) terminal, to be able to function well, even a magnet has its opposite polarity to maintain harmony, say two magnets having the same polarity are joined together, there will always be a repelling **** that governs the two objects. What I'm saying is that it is a fact that there is a reality that dictates why there must be opposite however it might be represented to any objects to maintain balance otherwise.
God in His infinite unfathomable ways cannot be comprehended by anyone not unless He was chosen to by God Himself. I am nothing though, but it is a reality that you and I cannot dismiss, that the universe and this planet per se did not just evolve on its own but was designed and created by a superbeing who was fondly called God.
Besides, all the things we see is but temporal and what truly is permanent is yet to be revealed. This earth is just a testing ground though, everyone is given opportunity to look up into Him and share His true glory wherein absolute and ideal world exists or you may continue to reject as you wish though..
please stop this reverent stuff, because i told you: i'm an atheist!
you don't comprehend and call it: GOD... i'm just perfectly happy NOT comprehending!
please STOP being so presumptuous. you think a prayer will help you, the next person thinks a rain-dance will make it rain, and i think it's all superstitious bullshit! understand?
Just a thought..
How do we know joy and happiness if we do not know what grief and sadness were
How do we know comfort and security if we did not somehow run through the experience of wanting and even aggression
Fact was opposite sides represent reality, to be able to appreciate the beauty of something, it is essential to also acknowledge that there is an ugly side that goes along with it.
Likewise, good differs from evil and can be seen and appreciated in this lifetime. The difference though, it is very comforting believing that you were not alone in your difficulties rather than being alone and having your light fading out to oblivion..
Look out a window.
Here is a story used by a rabbi.
A king goes to visit a rabbi and tells him he doubts the existance of a Creator of the Universe. He told the rabbi everything just happened, the entire universe is a huge coincidence with no purpose, just the result of luck and many throws of the dice.
He asks the rabbi to prove the universe was created by a intelligent design.
The rabbi says to plerase open up the window, and then that the king unscrews the top of the ink bottle but leave it on there, with the feather quill pen next to it.
He asks him to put a clean piece of paper next to it.
the king complies and leaves, told to reeturn the next afternoon and his answer will be explained.
Next day the atheist king returns, and sees the most beautifully caligraphed poem written on that piece of paper and the rest of the ink spilling onto the floor.
"what a beautifully caligraphed poem, what a nice rhyme, who wrote this?" the king asks the rabbi.
"No one. I forgot to close the window last night. A cat or a bird or a rat must have climbed or flown in and knocked over the bottle of ink.
No, the kings insists, Someone wrote it. did you write it?
;The rabbi shakes his head, and says, "its just a coincidence that the ink spelled into words, and which rhyme and make sense.
the king laughs, but the rabbi is serious.
"No, someone had to write that poem."
"Its just a piece of paper with spilled ink. One little coincidence, compared to the hills and trees and clouds and mountains you see out of this window," explained the rabbi.
Albert Einstein said, "God does not play dice with the universe.'
But would add just a little thing what I noticed: they are talking to him but he do not talk to anyone. And if he does ... just remember what he told to our former president ...
See, another proof you're right!
you blame the people that died in war that they quit asking??? i'm sure they prayed: please lord, save me and my family..! but the lord was deaf or had other things to do... like telling the pope that condoms were not a good idea, better to let the young african population die of aids, and their c h i l d r e n be orphans!
this god, IF he is ALMIGHTY, is NOT ANY better than Joseph Mengele!
can you godfearing people please shut-up about that when talking to me??!
some people (like me) don't WANT to seek for something religious! because it's NOT RATIONAL and it starts WARS!!
racism, and it's victims, are just a tiny joke next to religious feuds! hallelujah!!
fed up with with irrational theories and beliefs, that's more like it!
even on this LIBERTARIAN (showyourdick/cunt) website, people post messages and threads in this forum like it's the forum of some church permitting to talk about sexuality.
so, if i see this thread about: "oh my god, i was into anal, and now i'm gonna die, but jezus just saved me", well, at that moment i have to take a piss! on the spot! right!
Best of luck to you!
We do not find God, he finds us.